Sunday 15 January 2012

Welcome



Welcome to Serpent Fire. This is a blog about Kundalini - the awakening of the life force energy. It is dedicated to the compilation of resources from all over the world to create a coherent sense of what Kundalini is, how to cope with it and live your best life. This blog will soon be turned into a book in compilation with a memoir I am writing.
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Namaste.  
© Shannon Naithair Teine, 2011

Kundalini Awakening Story From a Young Woman


I had an amazing experience with kundalini this morning
I have never intentionally worked towards awakening my kundalini, but instead it began awakening randomly a couple of years ago without me understanding what was happening.
and the universe led me to click on a wrong link one day and find myself on an Amazon page for a book about kundalini. This led me on a trail of research. I felt her stirring as I began to understand, finally able to put to words my spiritual turmoil from the last few years. At first I was very eager to began my journey with kundalini, but then began to suppress it because it scared me a bit to understand this immense depth of the universe inside of me
so in the midst of an episode of sleep paralysis this morning, when kundalini began ascending my spine, instead of fighting it as I always do, I surrendered and allowed it to travel up to my crown, whereupon my body was enveloped in this gloriously pure energy. There is no other way to describe it other than saying it felt like a full-body orgasm. I saw indescribable colours and visions behind my eyes and heard the sounds of a rainforest. This was different from other experiences, because when I try to stop it, the energy feels overwhelming and forced, but this time I was in a state of divine ecstasy. 
but the sleep paralysis in itself is a frightful experience and I forced myself out of the state. I would have liked to continue the state without the sleep paralysis, which is something I will begin working on with kundalini meditation and yoga. (by the way, it seems most of my kundalini experiences happen when I am in the midst of sleep paralysis. it is not the norm, but it does happen occasionally. has anybody else experienced this?)
I’m left feeling very calm and centered. last night I admitted to my boyfriend that lately I have felt no will to live and I have been thinking a lot about suicide. I’ve been feeling detached from life, as if I am witnessing myself be an actor in a play. I feel completely unreal at times and everything about my current living situation has left me feeling hopeless and desperate. I could go on an on about the delusions and struggles, but anyway…, It was really hard for me to hurt him by admitting that, and though he tried to comfort me, there was this hollow feeling in me as I went to bed, as if nothing he said or did could help.
I now understand I want to live, because i believe the sole reason for life is to experience spiritual growth on one’s way to nirvana/ultimate liberation (whathaveyou—sometimes it feels ridiculous to put words to what I know to be beyond words). I must dedicate this life to consciously becoming one with all by helping end suffering for myself and all living beings
It’s incredibly hard to fight my ego, because at times I feel like I have lost touch with myself completely and let my ego run on auto-pilot. I understand the senselessness of this now. I thank this divine universe for giving me the gift of kundalini in this lifetime, for helping me on my way towards the right path.
I feel so giddy right now. As if all the worries in my head have been wiped away by the ancient light of the stars :)
this is turning into a long post, but hear me out. last night I watched the trees sway in the wind, a sensuous dance that my boyfriend and I had the priviledge to witness. The air was very calm last night, somewhere in that perfect balance between cold and hot where it almost seemed like there was no temperature at all, if not for the occasional soft, cool wisp of the wind
there is so much symbolism lately in nature about finding the middle way. I follow her guiding hand to reunite with the universe. 
Post is © Shannon Naithair Teine, 2011.
Content is © Senseless Sassafras 

Kundalini: A Personal Approach by Phil Hine (e-book)


This is a very succinct book about Kundalini Awakening; it covers a lot of ground. A good read. 
Kundalini: a personal approach
by Phil Hine
“I am the flame that burns in every heart of man, and in the core of every star. I am Life, and the giver of Life; yet therefore is the knowledge of me the knowledge of Death.”
AL II: 6
1. Introduction
The Awakening of the Kundalini or Fire-Snake is a central feature of contemporary Magick, which has assimilated the concept from its original Tantric source. Although the concept of Kundalini was first introduced to Western occultists by Theosophists such as Alice Bailey and C.W. Leadbeater, it took the more detailed writings of Arthur Avalon and Aleister Crowley to launch significant numbers of Western occultists in search of this experience. It was Crowley in particular who provided a synthesis of Western and Eastern magical practices, and left for future occultists an integrated approach towards Kundalini experience, identifying it as the central ’magical power’ in the human organism. Crowley’s (enthusiastic) experiments with both drugs and sexual magick were a far cry from the “spiritual asceticism” expounded by many of his contemporaries. While “spirituality” was generally seen in terms of philosophies that reject the bodily or somatic experience, Crowley laid the foundations of a Western approach to development which integrated both the psychic and somatic areas of experience. It was not until the 1960’s, and the arrival of the “Psychedelic Era” that such an approach received widespread (and serious) attention. The 1960’s ushered in the beginnings of what Timothy Leary terms ”hedonic technology” - the discovery of pleasure over restriction via drugs, sexuality, dance, music, massage, yoga and diet. The “Psychedelic Era” also brought with it a great “Occult Revival”, with particular interest in hedonistically-orientated magick, such as Tantra and Crowley’s cult of Thelema.
Out of this explosion in consciousness came the developments in magical thought and practice of the 1970’s, particularly Kenneth Grant’s exposition of Crowley, Tantric doctrine and the works of Austin Osman Spare. Thelemically-oriented magazines such as SOThISAgapeand The New Equinox provided focal points for the evolution of magical techniques and considerations. Awareness of the physiological nature of intense states of consciousness was growing, and magick was increasingly becoming viewed as an approach to development that integrated both inner, mental experience and bodily awareness. The placing of “potentia” was within the individual rather than any external power.
Since the 1960’s, The “awakening” of Kundalini has become an experience that many Westerners seek. Magick is one of the major routes, yoga another, also ecstatic cults presided over by various gurus. There is a great deal of Information written on the subject, ranging from extremely technical writers such as Kenneth Grant, to popular works on Kundalini-Yoga and Tantrik-derived sex-manuals. Like many other occult subjects, there are now many books written “from the armchair”, where a writer perpetuates a particular view of a subject, rather than writing from direct experience. This has led to much confusion and misconception concerning the whole nature of Kundalini and its attendant experience. The power of the experience to transform consciousness in varying degrees seems to be almost universally recognised, but some writers warn against practising Kundalini-yoga, whilst others give the impression that little more is required than a few basic yoga asanas, and a willing partner of the (usually) opposite sex. Is your Kundalini rising or are you just pleased to see me?
2. Personal Experience
So what is meant by the term Kundalini experience? Kundalini is a Sanskrit word that can be translated as “coiled up”. Kundalini is represented in many Tantrik illustrations as a sleeping serpent, coiled 31/2 times, at the base of the spinal cord. The popular view of Kundalini is that itis a dormant power that lies waiting to be unleashed, by means of various practices. The ”serpent power”, once awakened, is coaxed up the central channel of the spine, entering the chakras (psychic energy centres) until it reaches the Crown chakra - and the yogi achieves”illumination”.
Sounds straightforward doesn’t it? But the Kundalini experience is a much more complex phenomenon. There seems to be no general consensus view of Kundalini, once one begins to delve into the subject. Western scientists and Eastern mystics, ancient sages and modern researchers - all have produced widely-varying explanations of what Kundalini is all about.
As with any other kind of “occult” experience, the most useful way to proceed is from personal experience; and for Kundalini - direct experience of it changed my attitude towards it (and many other things besides) and set me on the track of finding my own answers. When I first encountered the subject of Kundalini, in the writings of Kenneth Grant and Gopi Krishna, I developed the misconception that this was something to definitely avoid until I was ”more advanced” as regards magical and yoga abilities. So what happened? - I had a Kundalini experience. Shock-Horror! It came following a long period of Bhakti-yoga upon the goddess Kali, which culminated in a vivid “death-rebirth” vision of being burned alive on a stone slab, then being remade anew.
The Kundalini experience occurred seven days later. I had been experiencing acute discomfort all day, without being able to pinpoint any particular source. In the evening, I was meditating with the Priestess Raven. Suddenly I experienced what I can only describe as a fit - muscles went into spasm, my teeth began chattering, I felt hot and cold flushes, and, with spine arching backwards, began to hyperventilate. Raven held me down and helped me to relax and “go with it”. The “fit” lasted for about twenty minutes, and as it faded I felt quite weak and dizzy. Raven, a qualified yoga teacher with over 20 years of experience in Hatha and Raja yoga, remarked that she thought it was “the Serpent beginning to shift”.
This occurrence was abrupt, extremely physical , and beyond my conscious volition. All the preconceptions I had about Kundalini (and about being in control of experience) were suddenly shattered. Underneath all the confusion though, there was an intuitive certainty that what was happening was “right”.
Over the next 28 days, both the Priestess Raven and I experienced “acute” Kundalini activity - characterised by muscular spasms around the base of the spine, euphoria, out-of-the-body experiences and hallucinations. Here is a report of one of the most disorientating experiences:
(5/10/84, beginning approx. 11.30 pm):
It began as a scream in my head - “Kali’s scream” - I thought. It echoed on and on, for what seemed like forever, until I no longer heard it but felt it and saw it - a white light which shot down my spine into the base chakra, which opened with a blaze. A cold sensation spread slowly around my body - it felt like each individual nerve was alight. A very “jarring” sense of dissociation built up. When I closed my eyes, this rapidly became a sensation of whirling at high speed, accompanied by swirling patterns of colour. I was soon oblivious of other people in the room, and adopted the lotus asana as the best posture to keep myself “together”. This went on for over an hour.”
Roughly at the same time, the Priestess Raven experienced a vision of Kali, coupled with a feeling of extreme rage. She “heard” wolves howling, and her cat became terrified of her and would not approach her.
Once the acute phase of Kundalini had abated, we then had to try and make some sense of it, which led me to examine Kundalini in a new perspective.
The first point to be made is that Kundalini isn’t an isolated area of occult experience. Though It is often written about in a way that suggests this. That Kundalini can be “awakened” through a variety of techniques such as yoga, dancing, drumming, Intense devotion (Bhakti), sexual asanas, various meditations and use of psychoactive agents Indicates that it is a core feature of magickal/transformative experience. When I had my first acute Kundalini experience, I hadn’t been working for such an event, so it must have been “triggered” by other factors. A close study of tantric texts reveals that Kundalini is, rather than being a dormant “potential” sleeping until consciously raised, rather a kind of organising priciple that maintains systems in equilibrium at all scales - from the subatomic to the cosmic. In the “Sat-Cakra-Nirupana” text, Kundalini is referred to as the “world-bewilderer” - the root of the physical world. Kundalini is seen as a particular form of Shakti (energy) with dominion over matter. “coiled” Kundalini is often referred to as “sleeping” - but sleeping as in the sense of Sushupti - the thought-free state of no-mind. It is coiled Kundalini which maintains the physical universe. The activity of Kundalini in Individual systems (i.e. organic beings) is guided by the Jivatman - the embodied life-spark.
To use a holographic analogy, the Jivatman is a holographic encoding within each individual system to replicate the holoverse, or Brahman in Tantrika. It is the Jivatman which carries the evolutionary “program” for each individual entity. So it is the Jivatman which “rules” Kundalini activity, not the “earthbound” ego-complex. This could account for the many instances where individuals pursue Kundalini experiences through yoga and other means without ever getting any spectacular results; while the sceptic next door can have a powerful “bliss” experience whilst hanging out the washing. Many Eastern yogis do In fact warn Western students against trying to consciously “raise” Kundalini as a specific end. Sri Aurobindo’s “Integral Yoga” in particular, is concerned with ”living appropriately” and transformation within the physical world, rather then rejecting it. Integral Yoga is not concerned wIth seeking “liberation” from existence, but fulfilment within the world, whereby the Kundalini rises “in its own time.”
This idea bears out my own experience. The only times when I have used exercises specifically designed to affect the Kundalini (such as Crowley’s ‘Liber SSS’) is during periods of acute Kundalini activity, when the experience became too disorientating. Any kind of occult practice or powerful transformative event will affect the Kundalini. It “awakens” when conditions in the system it organises become conducive to its arousal.
Many models whIch seek to explain the phenomena of Kundalini posit the existence of cosmic inner planes and psychic centres - the chakras. Kundalini, in these systems, is conceptualised as a “spiritual awakening”. Fair enough, but such models as expressed by Western authors (such as C.W. Leadbeater and Alice Bailey) tend to maintain the spiritual-mundane, mind-body division, exhorting students to reject the material and seek the “spiritual” life. I find this idea somewhat suspect, preferring not to make such distinctions. At the time of the initial Kundalini experience, I was studying neurological medicine and consequently became Interested in evolving a neurological (and later, Neuromagical) model of Kundalini activity.
3. Trigger Factors
In describing the onset of intense states of awareness, many people use the word “trigger” to attempt to explain how the experience came about. Trigger factors do not cause the experience in the usual linear fashion, but somehow facilitate it. When such an event occurs spontaneously, we can only perceive It, and are not aware of the microscopic patterns of which it is the peak. The trigger to a Bliss/Kundalini experience could be the final push which allows all the various microscopic interactions in the individual system to pass a critical threshold, thus bringing about a change in awareness.
Bliss researcher Nona Coxhead has investigated trigger factors in transcendental experiences and outlined some commonly-occurring situations:
Listening to Music
Suicidal Feelings
Response to Nature
Relief from Emotional Pressure
News of Terminal Illness
Childbirth
Achievement
Grief or Loss
Sports Acceleration
Life-threatening Situations
Devotion and worship
Happiness
Clinical death
(Shannon’s note: please see my post on How It Can Happen for a more in depth list of ‘triggers’ that this book does not cover here.)
To these can be added the techniques of yoga and magick - the various ways of achieving gnosis; protracted bodily exercises such as Hatha Yoga or T’ai Chi; visualisation; ritual magick; contemplation; meditation: use of drugs, and others. The transformative experience (of which Kundalini is one conceptualisation) can occur spontaneously, or in relation to a systematised set of practices.
Intense emotional arousal, any technique to focus awareness upon one stimulus, and extreme physiological states appear to be key factors. Kundalini-related experiences are intensely body oriented, with subjects reporting muscle spasms spatial disorientation, and feelings of being filled with energy. Many people. such as Gopi Krishna, report strange sensations around the base of the spine - the site of the root-chakra Muladhara (root-support). Kundalini is often spoken of in poetic or mystical terms as moving up the spinal canal, entering the spina1 chakras in turn. I personally however, am more interested in what could be happening within the Central Nervous System.
During periods of intense Kundalini-arousal 1 experienced great “rushes” of energy moving up the spine. Looking at what occurred during such episodes in physiological terms, I was struck by two points: Firstly, that my body seemed to be showing the kind of involuntary muscle patterns displayed during orgasm - only much more pronounced; and secondly, showing an extreme stimulation of the autonomic nervous system - hence the hot and cold flushes, for instance. Just because one feels “strange sensations” at the base of the spine does not necessarily mean what is occurring originates in that area. Kundalini arousal could be an entirely neurological event which gives rise to a variety of bodily sensations.
So how does this relate to or trigger factors? The kinds of predisposing factors outlined above all have a powerful effect on the human nervous system. It is interesting to note that many ways of achieving gnosis are also used In torture and brainwashing - such as sensory deprivation, sleeplessness, fasting and pain Aldous Huxley, in his book “Heaven and Hell” (1956) points out how the spiritual discipines of mystics affected their biosystems:
“… it is a matter of historical record that must contemplatives worked systematically to
alter their body chemistry, with a view to creating the Internal conditions favourable to
spiritual insight. When they were not starving themselves into low blood sugar and
vitamin deficiency, they were beating themselves into intoxication by histamine,
adrenallin and decomposed protein in uncomfortable positions in order to create the
psycho~physical symptoms of stress.”
It does appear to be the case that some psvchotechnologies (such as magick) replicate, in amore controlled and volitional manner, the kind of intense states of arousal brought on by emotional stresses. Emotional arousal brings about fluctuations in both endocrine and nervous systems to such an extent that the changes can become a permanent pattern, with subsequent effects on perception, thought patterns and behaviour. Perhaps, in terms of Kundalini-type experience, the trigger factor(s) relate to the individual’s current neurological state at the time of the experience’s onset. The trigger factor for my first Kundalini experience was a dyadic meditation performed with Raven, aimed at blanking out the mind. Predisposing factors could be both long-term influences such as general and magical development, and more ”recent” influences such as the developing relationship between Raven and myself, the prolonged Bhakti on Kali and the death-rebirth vision, and work stresses. I don’t believe that such experiences happen “by accident” but that the patterns leading up to them are not always immediately obvious.
The neurological basis of meditation has been well-researched by neuroscientists who have produced some intriguing accounts of how meditative techniques affect the brain. In particular, there is the phenomena of “habituation”. Habituation is a neural response to the repetition of one particular stimulus. Focusing awareness on a single input (be it a visual or mental image, sound, chant or pattern of ritualised movement) dampens down sensory input and serves to inhibit the activity of the cerebral cortex. A simple example of habituation at work occurs when you go into a room where there is a clock ticking. At first it is a new stimulus so you will hear it clearly.
Eventually, especially if your attention is taken up by something else, you “stop” hearing it. The neurones firing in response to the clock ticking have effectively become “bored” and the sound slips below conscious awareness. Inhibition of cortical neural activity leads to the inward-turning of awareness. The habituation response is mediated from a group of cells in the brainstem known as the Reticular Activating System, - R.A.S.. This group of cells serves to ‘censor’ sensory input so that only “meaningful” stimuli reach the cerebral cortex (which relates to conscious awareness). A similar state can be induced by intense emotional arousal or shock, as if all inputs are momentarily ‘frozen’ by the R.A.S..
4. Awakening the Kundalini
As noted earlier, Kundalini awakens in its “own” time - when the human biosystem/body mind complex reaches a certain critical threshold. Some modern researchers into Kundalini experiences are trying to understand this process in terms of the build-up of key levels of chemical transmitter substances (both endocrine gland secretions and neurotransmitter substances) which relate to the physical and emotional stresses that the individual is undergoing. An allied theory is that of “neural coherence”. This theory posits that conscious experience is generated by the highly complex activity of millions of neurons in the brain. conscious experience depends on the coherence and patterning of this activity. The more ordered the neural activity across the cerebral cortex, the stronger (more intense) the conscious experience.
We know that a great deal of information processing within the brain does not reach waking consciousness. Two factors that mediate thIs selection of stimuli could be the reticular system discussed above, and the level of “noise” in the brain. Noise, in cybernetic terms, is random background activity as opposed to coherent “signals”. A high degree of noise across the cortex means that the individual is only aware of the strongest signals, such as sensory information. Signals that are less strong will be masked by the noise. Any kind of situation which “clears” the cortex of a large degree of stimulus input reduces the general level of neural noise. Any kind of activity which produces the kind of neural activity characterised by the habituation response therefore reduces neural noise. As this occurs, patterns of neural activity that are usually masked by noise come into conscious awareness. In other words, we become aware of more subtle aspects of experience which do not necessarily depend on our space-time bound senses. This could include psychic perceptions, and the core mystical experience of being enmeshed within a large “whole” - be it characterised as God, the Tao, or Chaos. Also, we become aware of aspects of somatic experience that do not normally pass the threshold of awareness.
A difficulty with using “spiritual” models of Kundalini-type experiences is that it is often difficult to account for “spontaneous experiences (such as happened to Gopi Krishna) and also, drug induced states. Basing all such experiences within a neurological framework is not merely an exercise in reductionism, but an attempt to provide a basis of understanding which includes these two situations (and others).
Many self-proclaimed authorities decry the idea that drug-induced states are as powerful (in spiritual terms) as those attained through more long-term techniques. Writers on the occult often warn against using drugs as a spiritual short-cut”. However, research into LSD and similar agents indicates that subjects do, as a result of drug-induced experience, go through the profound life-changes, change in aspirations and “spiritual” awakening that occurs as a result of more orthodox disciplines, or traumatIc life-events. However, an American researcher, W.N. Pankhe, notes that:
“The hardest work may come after the experience, in the effort to integrate the
experience with everyday life.”
This is probably true for “trippers” who do not have a coherent belief-system with which to make sense of the experience - witness the number of “acid casualties” who end up as born again Christians. The statement is also true for those who have “spontaneous” experiences. The major distinction between the drug-induced experience and the “disciplined” approach is that the latter is much slower, usually more controlled. Moving back to the “critical threshold” hypothesis at the beginning of this section, I would suggest that psycho-technologies such as magick or yoga, over time produce changes In the human biosystem that eventually trigger the Kundalini experience. These changes relate to the establishment of patterns of neural cohesiveness - so that the practitioner becomes increasingly aware of the subtler aspects of experience and changes in other internal systems. Long practice of breath control, for example, lowers the COlevel in the blood, which also “smooths out” cerebral activity across the cortex.
Although the hardware of body organs doesn’t change, the software does: i.e. the patterns of neural activity, chemical messengers, and transport of vital substances. All these factors can equally, of course, be affected by life-stresses, emotional trauma and repeated drug experience. In these terms, Kundalini could be an organising principle that maintains the harmonious interaction of all human biosystems. When we become more aware of it, we are becoming more receptive to the internal dynamics of our own systems and at the same time, opening (as Aldous Huxley put it) the “Doors of Perception”. It’s less that we “awaken” Kundalini, more that Kundalini awakens us. The riot of body-systems going into extreme activity often experienced as a part of early Kundalini shifts” could be a result of the progressive software changes discussed above. It could represent a “peak” In the internal evolution of the body mind complex, establishing new patterns of neural organisation in the brain. In subjective terms, this replaces previous “imprints” about the world and ourselves with the awakening of intuitive faculties, psychic perception, creativity, new aspirations and a sense of being a part of a greater whole.
I do feel that my own Kundalini experience in 1984 marked the turning-point in my own development. I had to throw out many previously-held conceptions and learn to listen to and trust my own intuition. Acute peaks in Kundalini activity since that time have not been so disorientating, but have still released further potentia for activity and creative output. Indeed, during such periods of activity, I have found that the best way for me to manage the ‘energy’ is to direct it towards some kind of project, rather than “bottling it up” with meditation and yogic practices.
5. Kundalini and Evolution
Kundalini actIvity in Tantric cosmology relates to the evolution of physical forms, the maintainence of the physical universe, and the spiritual evolution of entities in their return to Brahma - the noumenal source. It is the Jivatman, the spark of Brahman within each individual, whIch carries the instructions for our spiritual evolution.
Some Western scientists now regard the DNA-RNA structure as the genetic equivalent of the Jivatman. The suggestion has been made that the capacity to have Kundalini and similar experiences is encoded at the genetIc level. Surprisingly, this hypothesis has come from research into schizophrenia. Research in the last ten years Into the various syndromes collectively referred to as schizophrenia indicates that the subjective states reported by sufferers of the illness are similar, in many ways, to those reported by individuals undergoing “mystical” experiences. An individual’s liability to develop schizophrenia is partially genetically determined. It has been said that schizophrenia is a gun primed by genetic factors, loaded by upbringing, and fired by some kind of trigger experience. Why such genes have survived is a puzzle, but it could be that the same genes which predispose towards schizophrenia also mediate the internal evolution of consciousness. Mystically-oriented commentators on schizophrenia such as R.D. Laing and Jung have drawn attention to the links between madness and the psychic-transformative journey. However, while the magician or shaman is “swimming”, the schizophrenic is “drowning”. If the genetic coding of such experience is the case, then there are a multitude of other factors which impinge on the Individual to facilitate neurological evolution -“illumination”, neurological systems “crash”- schizophrenia, or many shades of either extreme.
Many people now believe that the next evolutionary step for humanity will be the evolution of consciousness. This is extant in current magical ideas such as the “gestalt consciousness” of the Ma’at Current, and In “new age” scientific paradigms as developed by Rupert Sheldrake (Morphogenetic Fields), David Bohm (Holoverse) and TImothy Leary (S.M.I2:L.E. formula). Leary’s 8-circuit model of neurological evolution in particular provides another way of interpreting the kind of process I have discussed. Briefly, Leary’s theory states that since the design of the nervous system is encoded within the DNA-RNA structure, then the evolution of human beings in neurological terms is also contained therein. As the individual develops, there occur critical periods during which the brain accepts imprints which then become core elements of subsequent learning. The first four circuits ensure genetic transmission and variability, establishing humanity as a continuing species. The next four circuits are the DNA-RNA “Keys” to species evolution and adaptation. These “higher” circuits are opened when internal conditions are conducive. They represent states of consciousness which, after a certain intensity of experience is reached (either by repeated access to them or by a very powerful singleexperience), become hard-wired programs - a new basic ‘reality’ from which the individual acts.
Once a circuit “opens” in this way, it becomes a powerful motivator for further development. For example, once bodily rapture (cIrcuit V) has been experienced, It gives the individual a foretaste of what is beyond the basic survival circuits and their attendant conditioning. This could spur the individual on to accessing and imprinting the “higher” circuits. This sounds similar to the Kundalini cycle, doesn’t it? It is certainly an area which merits further investigation, and some magicians are now turning to neurologically-based models to integrate and understand their experiences.
6. Conclusions
Although much of what is presented here is done so from a scientific viewpoint, much of it is built from very tenuous findings - there is still a long way to go in understanding Kundalini in neurological terms. It’s a start, however. My own attitude towards Kundalini remains 5i the lines of - “Well, it happens, and then I have to integrate and evaluate the experience after it passes”. I still don’t work actively for Kundalini experience, since I now hold the view that any kind of magical work will do this, and I find it more appropriate to work for specific projects and goals.
Peaks in Kundalini activity with their attendant changes in awareness do result in the kind of new imprints that Leary is talking about. I have tended to find that whatever “map” of this experience you impose over it - whether this be Leary’s model, Qabalistic power-zones, Hindu chakras or Taoist chi-zones, the experience will fit them. This leads me to feel even more that the brain is the central ares of the Kundalini experience. Kundalini is, Indeed, the root magical power, since it is the potential which can take us, once we are aware of it, beyond the limitations of cultural conditioning and space-time.
Bibliography
·  Arthur Avalon - Serpent Power
·  Nona Coxhead - The Relevance of Bliss
·  Kenneth Grant - Aleister Crowley and the Hidden God
·  Aldous Huxley - Heaven and Hell
·  Timothy Leary - Exo-Psychology
·  Mary Scott - Kundalini In the Physical World
·  Douglas & Slinger - Sexual Secrets
·  John White (Ed) - Kundalini, Evolution and Enlightenment
·  Robert Anton Wilson - Prometheus Rising
[This essay was first published in Chaos International #3, 1987.]
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Post is © Shannon Naithair Teine, 2011.
Content is © Phil Hine

You Are Out There


So happy to know you, fellow Awakened souls…knowing your struggles and your bliss is such a deep comfort to me. Please never stop writing, never stop reaching out. This is what we need to do. I love you all. 

© Shannon Naithair Teine, 2011.

Suffering


With Kundalini, it is sometimes impossible to use logic to figure out what is happening. Moreover, it is impossible (unless one undergoes a series of medical tests every day, or every week) to know, unless otherwise specified by the body, what is Kundalini moving around doing her various things and what is just the body being sick, being sensitive, having a ‘down day’ etc.
The fact is, what she does is a mystery from moment to moment. I used to have chest pains that were so intense they drove me to various emergency rooms, only to find that nothing was wrong. Same with my pelvic area - pain with no discernable medical cause - same with my brain, same with many other places. Although I would never advise not getting tested, chances are if you are undergoing a Kundalini process your various aches, pains, discomforts and altered states can be attributed to her. But knowing this does not always allow us to rest easy, does it?
Life goes on. Jobs need to be attended and worked with vigilance. Families need to be nurtured and fed. There is a whole list of practicalities which need to be taken care of in life which don’t always fall in line with the Kundalini agenda. The illnesses which can take place have no normal duration, the pains have no obvious conclusion. Sometimes we can be bedridden and made ‘invalid’ by these phenomena. I am currently going through something like this now. Flu-like symptoms with no discernable cause, which comes one day and is gone the next. Some say it’s the liver/kidneys detoxing, other say it’s parasites. What does one with Kundalini believe? One would hope she would search her heart for the answers, but these answers don’t always come. Just like in meditation one cannot logically understand what the samadhi state is - one cannot logically try to understand what is happening inside.
So what is the best thing to do?
Well, I’ve been reading a lot of quotes by various writers/philosophers/saints which speak about perception being fundamental to happiness. If life is suffering then we must rise up to not only meet it but surmount despair, this is the only way to happiness. We cannot search for it externally but rather internally find the light and the way. No matter what our lot in life happens to be, if we don’t do this we fall prey to whatever ‘demons’ exist in the mind, which can easily multiply over time (misery loves company.) Sometimes one puts suffering upon oneself, but in the case of a Kundalini awakening the suffering can be very, very real and very hard to surmount. My suffering has been in various degrees since I awakened 5 years ago, and now with this ‘flu’ I am finding it nearly impossible to have a clear thought, let alone go to work and thus provide for my family. 
But there is nothing to do but keep trying to push through it and try to be happy in the meantime. This is not to say I do not break down. Sometimes I do every single day. But finding the light within is a long journey full of many pitfalls and trials. The only thing I can do is keep pushing onwards. Otherwise, perish. And there is too much beauty and love in this life to give up. 
© Shannon Naithair Teine, 2011.

Sometimes Kundalini Is An Illness


There is a buzzword out there in the world wide web for us spiritual awakened-types, and it’s called “Kundalini Syndrome”. It sounds as scary as it very well might be. It is classified by Kundalini symptoms being near to that of psychosis and sometimes delusion. It can be psychosomatic. But it always is as a result of a sudden or gradual onset of spiritual changes within the person, and almost always as a result of Kundalini (or a near death experience, as an example of another sudden spiritual shift) awakening through a body that is ill-prepared for such an event to take place.
Gopi Krishna, one of my spiritual idols, wrote:
“The power, when aroused in a body not attuned to it with the help of various disciplines or not genetically mature for it, can lead to awful mental states, to almost every form of mental disorder, from hardly noticeable aberrations to the most horrible forms of insanity, to neurotic and paranoid states, to megalomania and, by causing tormenting pressure on reproductive organs, to an all-consuming thirst that is never assuaged.”
This is what has been taking place inside of me. Maybe not all at once and maybe not the worst forms of insanity, at least not for extended periods of time. But it has been happening. I have felt mentally and physically ill, and I have not known which way is up, which way is out, whether I am causing it myself or what is happening at all. I have felt completely powerless against this tidal wave of torment. For five years. Five years! Who could bear such a weight? Carrying the ring of power into Mordor as the landscape gets worse and worse, resources scarce - demons become more abundant - it is a perfect metaphor for this process, going it alone and without guidance after having awakened perhaps prematurely. 
The nervous system is a complex thing and yet un-researched when it comes to Kundalini’s effects upon it. Thus far there has been no way to research this and there may never be. All that is known is there is a mighty difference between one who has undergone the preparatory processes (through yoga, breathing, meditation) in order to more safely awaken the energy and one who awakens spontaneously. The former, of course, may do these exercises without knowing what they are doing, but often one with such devotion will be doing these things in order to tap into these powerful resources within. The latter, like me, often has no idea what has just happened, and thus absolutely no way to cope. Finding answers through the internet can be daunting and there are a lot of abject personalities out there you want to avoid. Whether it simply be in the mind’s preparation or the preparation of the nervous system as well, the person who practices and who knows what they are doing will generally have a more pleasant experience of this energy and come across fewer problems along the way.  
Just like anything in this lifetime, the Law Of Attraction states that what you give your attention to will grow. If you give yourself over to fears and ego-based resistances to this process then it will become negative. What Gopi Krishna said above can become all too true. Pain, disease, weakness, mental disorders and all of the resulting loss of family, friends and other relationships. 
As much as one must surrender to this process one must also become an active participant in its evolution if one hopes to shape the course of things. I have made the mistake of being too passive, too distracted and too caught up in the life I had before(and thus the self I was before) the awakening happened to give myself over to the teachings and the requirements of my ascension. If this has happened to you then your life has been given anew, and there is no going back. You will be asked, and then told to change things  - and then scolded painfully if you do not listen. The process of ascension in and of itself has never once harmed me. It has only ever been my perception of, or lack of care for, its presence inside of me which has done me harm. This is not to say that pain will never be part of the process if you surrender, as it most certainly is always an aspect of awakening. But my understanding is that one can diminish these unsavoury mental and physical states of being, and perhaps someday, completely.
Again, Gopi Krishna wrote:
“…in the place of a roaring noise in my ears, there was now a cadence like the humming of a swarm of bees, enchanting and melodious, and the encircling glow was replaced by a penetrating silvery radiance, already a feature of my being within and without. The marvellous aspect of the condition, lay in the sudden realization that although linked to the body and surroundings I had expanded in an indescribable manner into a titanic personality, conscious from within of an immediate and direct contact with and intensely conscious universe, a wonderful inexpressible immanence all around me.”
I have to hope that this is possible. I am about to undergo this transformation through rigourous practice and devotional love. I will continue to report back about my progress. 
© Shannon Naithair Teine, 2011.

The Heart - Pain, Energy, Arrhythmias; Fear.


There is a lot to be said about the heart - as a ‘pump’ - the driving force behind our blood circulation, as a symbol of love, passion, devotion, awe - and when Kundalini strikes it is one of the biggest centres that She governs.
When I Awakened five years ago, my heart went into a major frenzy. The sequence of what is commonly called ‘the spinal sweep’, which is a coined term for the initial rush of profound, intense, life-changing energy which blasts out of the Muladhara Chakra up the Sushumna channel (these terms are explained in other articles) hitting all of the major centres in the body. First the root, then the stomach/kidneys and thus adrenal glands, which causes the glands to release almost lethal amounts of adrenaline. Some call this “adrenochrome” - which is thus far a hypothesized term but is described as: “Adrenochrome is an oxidation product of adrenaline (ephinephrine, norepinephrine). The effects and classification of this drug is said to be controversial because it is debated whether is has any psychoactive or hallucinogenic effects, although some test subjects compared the adrenochrome experience to mild psilocybin and LSD experiences. Psychoactive effects of adrenochrome may include euphoria, confusion, a change in train of thought, lack of judgment, poor insight and inability to concentrate.” There are no scientific studies thus far that confirm the above quote, but many Kundalini-Awakened people use it to describe the effects that the sheer volcano of adrenaline being violently forced into the system.
Adrenaline in itself causes the nervous system to shift into ‘fight or flight’, which amps up the cardiovascular system and thus the heart will begin pumping more quickly. This adrenaline plus the sweep of the Kundalini energies make for a double-dose of rapid-fire heartbeat. When mine happened, my heart was beating so quickly I could not discern singular beats - rather, my heart became a violent vibration in my chest, which caused an overwhelming amount of fear in me that I was going to die. I won’t for the moment discuss what happened when the Kundalini entered my mind as this is not the time, but the sensations therein did not help for that fear to go away.
In Jana Dixon’s Biology of Kundalini website (which I highly recommend if you can stomach all of the technical writing), she discusses another phenomena which can happen in the heart called “Heart Expansions”. She says:
The heart expansions themselves might occur when the parasympathetic gains dominance in the cascade of kundalini activity. They occur during periods of intense bliss, right-brain consciousness and are associated with intense grounding and extreme lethargy. This dive reflex makes more sense than my first explanation, which was the extra grounding needed by the hearts field pulling one into the ground during the massive heart expansion periods that occur. Whatever the cause of the grounding, it must be noted that the extreme pull on the body is relieved by lying for half an hour on the grass or bare earth with ones spine on the ground. This is no doubt a key to understanding the phenomena.”
I have experienced these twice in my K life. Once, when I was riding in my friend’s car down a busy highway and once while I was watching a very touching moment in a film. It felt like an explosion of bliss inside of the heart area (aka the heart chakra area). The energy rush caused my heart to begin beating fast. Because of the sudden onset, I went into fear, which caused my body to want to panic. However, it was not this panic which seemed to be governing my heart’s rhythms. It was this ever-expanding sensation; this radiating pulse of energy going on and on from me in all directions, with my heart in its centre beating faster than a hamster’s.
One can also experience a lot of pain in the heart or the heart centre as Kundalini moves inside of this cavity. There are schools of thought which say that this pain is usually attributed to cleansing and clearing out of this area, just as pain from Kundalini can mean this anywhere else in the body. It is almost always disconcerting, however, and can cause us a lot of anxiety. I have gone to many hospitals and doctor’s offices seeking answers for this, only to be told that they see nothing that could be causing this pain.
Lastly - arrhythmias, irregular heartbeats, also seem to be a persistent and common aspect of the Awakening and Activation processes. For me, though of course it is impossible to scientifically link the two as coming from one source - my palpitations began almost exactly one month before my Kundalini Awakening took place. Since then they have been in existence almost constantly, causing me a lot of worry and grief. I have been, like I said above, to doctors and emergency rooms about this problem, which sometimes feels like I am on the verge of a heart attack and is very, very disturbing. Aside from an apparently harmless palpitation that they can read on their monitors, they say there is nothing anomalous about what they see. Yet here it is, and it happens almost daily.
Again and again the best thing we can do is try and relax and not attach our fears and worries to these things as they happen.
If you have any questions or comments don’t hesitate to contact me.
Namaste.
© Shannon Naithair Teine, 2011.
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Awakened: Interviews With Peers iii: Matt Ferraiolo


This is a mini-series of interviews I have conducted with people in a facebook group called Kundalini-Awakening-Systems-1. If you too are awakened, or are going through a radical spiritual experience, you can contact them, or me, and I can get you in touch. The group is mediated by Chrism Kundalini who has been mentioned several times in this website. It is a closed group, so you will have to ask to join, but all are accepted as long as you are respectful.
These interviews are intended to provide different accounts of Awakenings, as no two are the same.
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Can you tell us a bit about yourself? (Name/approximate age/country you live in).
Matt: My name is Matt Ferraiolo, 27, from New Jersey, USA.
When did you have your Kundalini Awakening?
Matt: Tuesday 6:45-9:00am April 7, 2009
Was there anything significant that happened to you which you believe prefaced the Awakening/made it happen?
Matt: There was a long string of occurrences unfolding a year prior that led me to my awakening. After hitting rock bottom a year prior, there was a rapid change my life’s direction. It started with a simple choice to stop living in misery and fear and to start giving myself and this life a chance. I isolated myself and went into a hibernation of introspection and solitude. I became interested in meditation and within a few months experienced my first controlled astral projection. The experience played a pivotal role in my spiritual journey. Afterwards I became determined to learn more about the phenomena and began a focused practice in astral projection. Around this time I was led to Kundalini Awakening Systems after having dreams, and synchronicities revolving around kundalini. My awakening occurred a week after receiving shaktipat from my teacher.
How did the Awakening happen? Where were you? What did it feel like? How did you react to it?
Matt: Tuesday 6:45-9:00am April 7, 2009:
Last night I was up late helping my friend with his campaign. Over the course of the night I drank copious amounts of coffee. Upon returning home, too caffeinated to sleep, I attempted to astral project. Lying flat on my back in bed, I let myself fall into a trance. Upon reaching a state of deep relaxation, I began noticing some unusual hypnogagic imagery. Behind closed eyelids, the unmistakable imprint of the Sanskrit Aum symbol appeared, following faint yet discernible star tetrahedrons. While this was different than the abstract hypogagic imagery typically experienced during a deep trance, it did not strike me as anything out of the ordinary. It was not until I began experiencing what felt like very strong vibrations similar to OBE vibrations, localized at the base of my spine at my perineum, that I realized this was something different.
As the condensed vibrations in my root chakra intensified, I realized this was not OBE phenomena, this was a kundalini awakening! A warm, heavy, feeling swept across my body. An unseen force gently held my hands in place along with the rest of my body. A sensation of orgasmic, vibrating, pressurized fizz advanced from my perineum to my sacral chakra. My sacral chakra became heavily stimulated. I became extremely sexually aroused. Feelings of thankfulness, ecstasy and bliss consumed me.
When the intense sacral chakra stimulation receded, the vibrating energy moved up to my solar plexus. Following this was a strong shift in consciousness. Immediately my feet began to burn VERY HOT. I began to sweat profusely all over. My head and chest was dripping with sweat. My jaw clenched as I began to tremble and convulse. Panic and fear crossed my mind but I caught myself, and focused on my breathing, allowing myself to surrender. Even though the experience was fierce and powerful, there was an ever-present, silent, motherly reassurance that made me feel safe, despite what was happening.
Instead of continuing upwards, it repeated another cycle starting with the root chakra and back up. As the kundalini ascended to my chest I noticed burning sensations, like being dabbed with hot match heads all over my chest and shoulders. At this point the energy calmed down, flowing smoothly like warm water up and out the top of my head. From this point on there were no major sensations associated with each chakra. The duration of the whole experience was about 2 hours. I didn’t move or change positions. The entire time I felt as though there was a heavy blanket holding me in place. I probably could have moved at any point but the idea of moving never crossed my mind.
While the experience was unexpected and intense, I took comfort in the presence that was guiding me through this. For the first time I was able to surrender not only to God but to myself. I have experienced ego-loss via psychedelics but this was different, it was wiser, more compassionate and loving than any artificially induced ego-loss. It was like I was able to allow myself to be completely comfortable in my core essence. No self-judgment, or any other baggage. It was just me in the hands of God, nurturing me in a very deep and powerful way. I felt like I was set free of all the pain, sadness and baggage that I had carried with me to that point. I had been so accustomed to living in this “cage” I was not even aware of how limited and confined my experience of life was until those restraints were burned away. For the first time I was able to get a glimpse of God and my soul.
Did you know about Kundalini energy before it happened? If not, how did you find out about it?
Matt: Prior to the awakening I was practicing astral projection, meditation, trance practice, and some energy work on a regular basis. As I experienced the various phenomena associated with astral travel, I became more aware of energy, chakras, and the subtle realms. While I was learning to astral project I also heard about kundalini from time to time. It was only a few months after hearing the word for the first time that I experienced the awakening. When reading descriptions and experiences of Kundalini from other people despite it being an unfamiliar subject to me, it weirdly resonated with me in a very deep way. Many times while reading other people’s experiences, it felt very familiar, almost as though it was already predetermined to be a part of my life. Following this I began having dreams and frequently noticed the word kundalini popping up in my internet searches. Eventually this led me to my teacher.
How have your friends and family dealt with your Awakening?
Matt: At least one of friends experienced an awakening shortly after mine. I don’t talk about this with family. Most people don’t understand or like hearing about it.
How has it affected your life? How has it changed you?
Matt: Kundalini has turned my life upside down and continues to challenge me as it refines me as a person. I’ve become somewhat detached from friends, society, culture, and the things I used to like doing. The way I relate to people has changed quite a bit and continues to fluctuate. My diet has changed pretty dramatically. I do not eat meat and avoid foods that are not beneficial to my spiritual growth. My life progressively revolves around God and evolution. I am more sensitive to morals and live my life according to what feels good in my heart. It is an ongoing process. I often struggle with my own issues as it brings these up and forces me to address them. However, despite what happens, Kundalini has blessed me with an unshakable knowing that there is a God, and that life isn’t just a meaningless existence.
What are some of the key lessons you have learned from it?
Matt: Love, surrender, humbleness, forgiveness, gratitude, tolerance, acceptance, trust and hope.
What are your plans for the future?
Matt: No major plans, just to continue to follow the changes as they are presented to me, increase my devotion to God and down the line I wish to surround myself with like-minded, spiritually devoted people. Eventually I would like to be a counselor of some kind and find a way to be of service to others.
Do you have any words of advice for people reading this blog, who might be going through an Awakening themselves?
Matt: Surrender. Do not fight it. Listen to what changes kundalini is asking of you, and act on them. Remember to love and be humble. Try to see challenges as opportunities to grow, even if your ego doesn’t want it.
© Shannon Naithair Teine, 2011.